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COMPLETELY Healed from Depression Leading to Suicide! No Meds or Psychiatrist Involved! (PART II)

*** Disclaimer: Please note that in no case am I suggesting that you DO NOT follow the recommendation of your doctor/psychologist/psychiatrist. Continue taking your prescriptions, visiting your doctor as prescribed, and following your medical therapeutic recovery plan! ***

Another important note: This is by no mean an article to debate religions and gods. This article is for people who are truly going through depressions and plagued with suicidal thoughts who are truly seeking healing, freedom, and want their lives back! The testimony in this article might be unorthodox or new to you, but it worked for me which is why I am testifying about it. As a result while reading this article you might have to consider an approach that you might have never thought of in your life or challenge long held believes. If you are too proud to save your life and want to be right about what your belief and not give the chance to an approach to prove what the truth is, you are in the wrong place. Please do not read this article. As the author I personal go only by results, not emotions, pride, or wanting to be right. This is what saved my life!

Now, I was telling my story in (PART I) and how I finally got healed from my depression without ever seeing a psychiatrist like I was supposed to being locked in an asylum.

What worried me the most about the options above was that I would not only forever have a “medical record” from then on but would also have to be locked in an asylum where people are heavily medicated in the worst-case scenario. Here are some ratios of people using anti-depressant that are quite frightening listed in this article written on November 2017.

Depression statistics

The NIMH provides the following summary of the treatments and therapies for schizophrenia:

“Antipsychotic medications: Antipsychotic medications are usually taken daily in pill or liquid form. Some antipsychotics are injections that are given once or twice a month. Some people have side effects when they start taking medications, but most side effects go away after a few days. Doctors and patients can work together to find the best medication or medication combination, and the right dose. Up-to-date information on medication use and side effects can be found on the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) website, including the latest information on warnings, patient medication guides, or newly approved medications.

Psychosocial treatments: These treatments are helpful after patients and their doctor find a medication that works. Learning and using coping skills to address the everyday challenges of schizophrenia helps people to pursue their life goals, such as attending school or work. Individuals who participate in regular psychosocial treatment are less likely to have relapses or be hospitalized. For more information on psychosocial treatments, see the Psychotherapies webpage on the NIMH website.

Coordinated specialty care (CSC): This treatment model integrates medication, psychosocial therapies, case management, family involvement and supported education and employment services, all aimed at reducing symptoms and improving quality of life. The NIMH Recovery After an Initial Schizophrenia Episode (RAISE) research project seeks to fundamentally change the trajectory and prognosis of schizophrenia through coordinated specialty care treatment in the earliest stages of the disorder. RAISE is designed to reduce the likelihood of long-term disability that people with schizophrenia often experience and help them lead productive, independent lives.”

https://www.treatmentadvocacycenter.org/evidence-and-research/learn-more-about/25-schizophrenia-fact-sheet

Doing without the meds if I saw a psychiatrist was hence an impossibility, a least that is what I truly believed. Some people I know  who were on medications for depression always used to explain how they could not afford to miss a day without taking their psychosis meds. That was truly saddening to me and unsettling. However, is that truly healing? Healing should set you completely free and not hooked to meds for life.

Now going back to the history about my depression.

During one of those dark nights where the voices to kill myself were overwhelming as they always were, something told me to pick up the Bible and read it. Remember that I was a Christian “ish”. I used to go to church on very selected occasions but knew how to fast often for 3 days when I needed something from God such as getting a new job for example which I used to get 

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after the fast by God’s mercy and grace. He was faithful and merciful even then and granted my prayer.

Now let’s face it, reading the Bible doesn’t sound fun at first and wasn’t really that appealing to me, whatsoever. However, you will be surprised the things that you would be willing to try if you are on the verge of ending your life! I picked up the Bible and started reading the New Testament. I came across lots of fun facts like:

The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. (John 10:10)

As I started reading the Bible and getting convicted (this is a biblical term used to describe when the Holy Spirit finally opens one’s heart to see your sinful ways. He will convict your heart of your own sins which will lead you to ask for forgiveness. It similar to doing wrong to a friend and refusing to admit it or not even knowing until you sit down one day and you get the epiphany that you truly did this person wrong.), the first thing that I did after picking up my Bible was to ask God for forgiveness and my disobedience for all my sins. I truly cried because I was still a Christian “ish” and knew that I never truly lived the Christian life. The incident that led to my depression was a direct result of disobeying him, intentionally because I got fed up and tired about “waiting” on him. And worst case for me is that when I was committing the sin, I knew better but still decided to do it anyway opening the door to the depression that evidently followed.

As I continue reading the Bible, I believe that I also went on a 3 day fast during which I cried to God, truly felt sorry towards him and all the bad things I did then poured out my heart and all my pain to him. Then as I continued reading the Bible, other passages were popping out such as:

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7)

Then “something” told me that every time I hear the voices, to say those two things out loud. Yes, I was saying it out loud as if I was talking to someone and I was saying it with aggressivity and conviction. It took me another 8 to 9 years to understand what “that something” was telling me to do by responding to the voices. “That something” was the Holy Spirit of the GREAT I AM who was teaching me spiritual warfare.

As I continue reading the Bible, other passages that are mere truths that the God who created us were telling about his own creations were adding to my repertoire. On other occasions when I will hear the voice in my head telling me to kill myself, I will say out loud again as if I was talking to a real person that I cannot see that:

“Jesus Christ came and died for me so I can have life in abundance” like it is written in the Bible said so I am not going to die, I am not going to kill myself (Sentence in reference to John 10:10)

And I would add:

It is written that I do not have the spirit of fear, I have the spirit of love, power, and my mind is very healthy and sound through Jesus Christ

Guys, I was doing this “every single time” I heard the voices would tell me to do something including killing myself. Every time, I would say those Bible verses out loud multiple times during the day with aggressivity. Guys, this is your life we are talking about! You cannot play and speak cutely. You have to “decree it with confidence” and believe what you are saying because Jesus said he already paid the price so you can have life abundantly, so you DON’T have to die. The voices obviously want to take you out. If those voices were imaginary and have no power, how can so many are killing themselves after hearing them in real life? Think about this, why can’t the “voices” tell you to “life abundantly” or “be happy” or “go have fun” but the only thing they have to say is negative at the end of which, you will stop existing in this life?

This is war and that was how I came to understand it! The war involved me and the ONLY weapon I had to fight with, against those voices were the words I was “declaring”. Notice that I used “declaring, not “saying” or “speaking” because I was not just talking to other people I would

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think of as friends and family, but to voices that want my life to end. I did not consider them friends, more like enemies. And after going through this “exercise” daily which again consisted of me decreeing and declaring those 2 “little sentences”, every single time and everywhere I heard the voices while continuing to read my Bible and praying, I started seeing a change. The voices started to become less and less present and my joy started to gradually return. The hopelessness started to subside. I was having longer night of sleep: 3,4,5,6, 7 hours and before I knew it things were returning to normal. My joy to live again was restored! I started going to the gym, happily going to work, hanging out with fiends and doing things I like! Needless to say that I saw life in a completely new way.

One day I realized that the voices were completely gone, at which point exactly they left, I couldn’t’ tell you! I never saw a psychiatrist and thank God never got to committing myself to an asylum like I thought I had to.

One day I realized that the voices were completely gone, at which point exactly they left, I couldn’t’ tell you! I never saw a psychiatrist and thank God never got to committing myself to an asylum like I thought I had to.

My testimony is that the Bible ONLY, cured me. Shocking right. Two sentences in the Bible, just two, cured my depression! You might not believe me but the only way you will know if it is true is to do it yourself. See when my life was on the line, I simply wanted to see results and healing. Not to be right about why this religion is right or wrong, but the right God I knew would completely heal me and he did. Dare I say that depression will prove to you which God is the real God you should worship!

8 years later is when I am finally understanding that the Lord was teaching me what is called spiritual warfare. The difference between the Bible and modern medicine as far as hearing voices is concerned is that the Bible acknowledges that the voices are real. What the voices are saying though are lies, but the voices themselves are from real beings, the trick is that you cannot see them:

You are of your father the devil, and your will is to do your father’s desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, and has nothing to do with the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks out of his own character, for he is a liar and the father of lies. (John 8:44)

The voices are from demonic beings, real beings which is why the voices seem so real and appear to be whispers. They are telling you lies for sure and playing with your mind and all the want you to do is to take your own life. They want humans to die, period. They are here to kill:

The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. (John 10:10)

This is what I guess would make the Bible the enemy of modern medicine as far as hearing voices are concerned. Modern medicine completely disregards the voices as hallucinations and will rather heavily medicate a patient to attempt to suppress the voices or restore balance in the brain to a patient. Patients on psychosis meds now have a new reality that is very fragile which is why missing your med one day may cause your whole life to unravel. This is my humble opinion and observation.

Hence, I believe that there are 2 completely different approaches to understanding depression: one is physical as in what we can see while the Bible approaches it from the spiritual way and cures it from what you cannot see. And in my experience, it is only when what you cannot see is dealt with that you can truly be free as what you cannot see is what create the physical reality you are living in. Not the other way around. That is why when we are curing depression in the physical world, you continuously need the meds along with the treatments. True healing I believe should translate in people being completely free and their lives fully restored back to them with no lifetime clutches!

Again, please continue going to your doctor, take your meds, and follow your regular treatment. I am simply giving my testimony based on how I got completely free from depression with suicidal thoughts while hearing voices 24/7 with NO medications and psychiatrist treatment.

Here are the three main steps of my recovery process of healing from depression:

Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you (James 4:7)

Let’s go through them:

 

I. STEP 1: Submit yourselves therefore to God

 When you are facing depression and hearing voices, you cannot fight physically with things that you would if you were dealing with humans in this world like going to court, talking and reasoning with them face to face, fighting them etc. All you hear are voices, you don’t know whom they belong to and you obviously cannot see them, and you have no clue how strong they are. As a result, you obviously can’t fight back if not why are people killing themselves after hearing them? Were they weak? Not too strong? No. If they could fight and keep their lives, they would have.

To fight you need to put yourself under a higher power to cover you if not go and try fighting by yourself and see if you win or if the power of your mind will heal you. As a result, you need a higher power that must be higher than human power and whatever entity is coming after you. It cannot be just from any source either because not all sources can help you. Prove it the voices speaking to you are from a source themselves. And seeing what they are telling you to do, your best interest doesn’t really appear to be what matters to them.

The power I am talking about here is the power of the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. You need to submit yourself to him. If you already belong to a religion, judge for yourself if your God is helping you and if he/she is not, you might want to seek a higher power that can help you. This first step here is for you to receive Jesus as your Lord and Savior so you can switch the power that you are under if you are not a Christian. If you already a Christian, confessing and repenting of your sins should the first step. For those who are not already Christians, say the prayer below wherever you are, regardless of which country you are from, and simply mean it with all your heart, body, mind, and soul:

“Jesus forgive me for all the evil things that I have done when I was living in disobedience and rebellion against you and far from you. Please forgive me for being your enemy. Jesus Christ the living son of the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob I confess you today with my mouth as  the Lord Jesus, and I believe in my heart that God rose you from the dead. I choose to follow you and forsake all other gods including the gods of my ancestors and welcome you and you only in my life. I want to believe in the true Loving God not any god because I am from a certain country or part of the world or a certain ethnic group.

Please come into my life today Jesus. Jesus Christ please baptize me with the Holy Spirit Amen.

 After this prayer, get a Bible and start reading the book of Matthew asap.

If you have never been baptized, go get baptized in a Bible base Church that believes in Jesus ONLY and the Bible. As Jesus to lead you to the church he wants you to go to.

As you read the Bible and learn the things that God calls good and bad, any churches that claim to be Christian but does things contrary to the things you are reading in the Bible, STAY FAR WAY FROM THEM. Buy the King James Version of the Bible if you can if not buy the amplified, international, new king James versions etc. Please do not buy any Bible specific to any church denomination (Catholic Bibles, Jehovah witness, etc.). Then find a good church in your community to fellowship with other Christians.

 

II. STEP#2: Resist the devil

 This is where you are going to use what you are reading in the Bible as weapon and resist the voices in your head and fight against them for it is written in the Bible that:

For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. (Hebrews 4:12, KJV)

The words you are reading, are your ONLY weapon.

 The reason why what you are saying works is that, by speaking out those word out loud you are now releasing God’s spirit to go fight again the beings behind the voices although you can cannot see them:

When Jesus knew in Himself that His disciples complained about this, He said to them, “Does this offend you? What then if you should see the Son of Man ascend where He was before?  It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh profits nothing. The words that I speak to you are spirit, and they are life. But there are some of you who do not believe. (John 6:61-65)

As a result, believe everything you are saying because by saying it you are speaking the word of God and only his words have power to fight in the unseen word, against the voices you are hearing. Say the sentences out loud every single time the voices tell you to do anything including killing yourself or when you feel the hopelessness engulf you or trying to overcome you. Say this out loud to yourself too as much as you can, daily, every morning, lunch time, night so you yourself can hear it. If you are in public or people are around you, say it out quietly but everything be stern and radical because you are at war, remember:

The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. (John 10:10)

  • I cannot die because Jesus bright me life in abundance you liars. You are not going to take the life Jesus gave me, not today nor tomorrow
  • I reject the thoughts you are given me because they are lies.
  • Jesus came some that I can live life in abundance, and I will do just that and there is nothing you can do about it, liars.

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7, KJV)

Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world. (1 John 4:4, KJV)

  • I do not fear you, because I have the power of the Holy Spirit and Jesus in me and you are not about to kill me neither can you
  • Greater is Jesus who is in me than you will ever be
  • I decree in Jesus name that my mind is fully sound and healthy, and I don’t have a split mind

For he hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him. (Corinthians 5:21, KJV)

  • You cannot condemn for the mistake I have made in my past, Jesus Christ is my righteousness

By doing and saying those words, and believing them, you are resisting the devil my friend.  Keep doing that for few days and weeks and see the results for yourself. I know it sounds crazy, but how can you judge if this is true unless you try it.

Meanwhile distance yourself from the situation and people that are causing you pain and focus on doing this war, your healing. Forgive them and ask Jesus to help you forgive them. Pray every morning to your father and decree and declare these same words out loud, with power, confidence and assertion. There is nothing they can do in Jesus name! As you read the Bible the Holy Spirit might show you more Bible verses to help you with your fight. Add them to the list. Continue saying them until you are healed!

 

III. STEP#3: He will flee from you

 Now that you have done Step 1 and are doing Step 2, they have to leave. The law of God says that they have to leave, and they will. They don’t have any choice. This is how you know how powerful the GREAT I AM is. The demons HAVE to follow the laws in the Bible which is why you always need to know and understand the laws, so you know how to play by them.

As a result, after doing Step # 1, Step #2 (this step you have to keep doing it until the voices stop), the voice will stop.

The only help you need is the Bible and the Holy Spirit. Ask Jesus to give you his Holy Spirit in Fullness. Get baptize asap.

Welcome to body of Jesus Christ where there is freedom Dear!

 

Stay Blessed!

Glory be to the Great I AM the Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit.

Our Lord God is One!

Thank you Jesus!